Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Anticipation

I'm listening to Carly Simon singing "Anticipation".  And that is what I have.  Anticipation for Friday, when I'll see my husband after nearly 3 weeks of separation.

Anticipation, Anticipation
Is making me late
Is keeping me waiting


I can't stand being away from him.  I am lost without him.  I love having him around.  He is the single most perfect person in my life.  What I would do without him...we don't go there. We just love the moments we have together.  I love him. 

And tomorrow we might not be together
I'm no prophet, I don't know natures way
So I'll try to see into your eyes right now
And stay right here, 'cause these are the good old days.


Monday, May 28, 2012

Daytime

This has been one of the most enjoyable days of my life.  It started out with sharing breakfast (coffee and doughnuts)  with 2 wonderful people and then having my pictures taken for a possible submission. 

Well, the submission is going to happen.  It's what happens afterwards that we don't know about.  That's when the casting office takes a look at everything and decides "Hmm, she looks interesting.  Let's meet her."

Wouldn't it be grand if it were that easy.  That simple.  Just "Come on in.  We like you".  But it isn't like that.  At least not for me.  Not yet.  Maybe in the near future people will say "Oh her, yeah.  Let's work with her".  But not yet.  However, I am holding hope to hear back from the folks in New Orleans.  Playing an "Alexis Carrington" type of character would be smashing.  And the gig in Richmond as Mary Todd Lincoln -- no slouch either.  To be Mrs Lincoln.  How could that be bad?  Oh, maybe if I have to deal with the ego of Bill O'Reilly.  If that's part of it, then this truly will be a spiritual test.  Not one of my favorite people.  Oh well.  We'll just have to wait and see.  One way to deal will be to remember that we are all made of the same clay, and that breath brought us all to be.  Keeping that in mind, maybe I'll be able to see past the stupid things he stands for, and try to just see the man.  Good thought.  Let's see if I can do it.  But -- I'd have to get the job first.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Waves


We are one.  We breathe with the Universe.   As I am, so are we all.  We are but waves in this sea of Everything.  We need to remember that.  Wow.  Would my Whopper be pleased that I'm finally getting this.  Something that he tried to teach me all those years ago and I just didn't get.  Thank you my friend for showing me the way.  This so beautiful.  Thank you, dear friend.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

To New York ?


I'm going to New York on June 1st -- maybe.  It all depends on whether I hear back from any of these film/television jobs I'm going out for.  Isn't it terrible that I'm willing to stop my personal enjoyment, and that of my husband's, for something as trivial as a TV/film gig.  But that's the nature of what I do.  And my husband seems to understand. He even encourages it.  He told me "if this comes through, do it."  But I'll have to see what comes through.  Schedules can be shifted.  "Just be."